I decided to re-do my top five list of my favourite songs from Little Machines. There was just one song I couldn’t get out of my head and it honestly hit me like a ton of bricks, so here is my new list:
is it most likely to have anxiety along with ocd? how do i tell if i have ocd? im not talking to any doctors but a counselor, should i mention that? thx u very much and i wish u the best of everything take care ~
I myself have multiple anxiety disorders. I currently have been diagnosed with: severe general anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, OCD, panic attacks and possibly PTSD.
First of all, if you have a general anxiety disorder it does not mean you have OCD or any other form of anxiety.
Second of all, OCD is not just about wanting to have your pens straight. It’s not that at all tbh. It’s a compulsion, hence the fact it’s called obsessive compulsive disorder. You get this belief in your mind that if you do not do a certain ritual something horrible will happen. Each OCD sufferer is different. Not everyone with OCD needs their pens to be straight or some annoying belief like that. I myself need everything in my room organised a certain way. If something is out of place I freak out and have a breakdown. I have night rituals that I do before I can go to sleep and if I do not do them I have a panic attack. If I am in a situation where I do not feel comfortable I pick at my right thumb three times and count each time. I do this on repeat until I feel comfortable again. It’s basically what the name says it is, it’s a compulsion to do something because if you do not do this thing you have the belief in your mind that something bad will happen to you or your loved ones. It eventually becomes an obsession. That’s what having OCD is like for myself.
And third of all, mention it! Talk to whoever you are seeing about what you think you might have and explain to them in detail why you are under this belief. However, do not self-diagnosis. Never ever self-diagnosis. Always get diagnosed by a professional in the mental health field so you are a hundred percent sure you suffer from that disorder. You can express your curiosity that you might have a certain disorder, but do not just assume you have it because you have one symptom. There is a criteria you have to fill out to be diagnosed with mental illnesses, and the only person who can truly tell you what is going on is a professional.
I'm also facing severe anxiety/depression. It's the worst it's ever been. I'm talking to a doctor about it next week...but it gives me anxiety just thinking about going to the appointment. I don't know how to talk about it without sounding like I'm seeking pity or drugs. Any advise!?
This advice will most likely suck, so I’m sorry.
I have been seeing the same Doctor for almost a year now and I’m honestly so lucky to have him as my Doctor. He is so kind and caring. A little too friendly and touchy, not in a creepy way, but he like touches my arms and stuff and I hate people touching me unless I’m really close to them. I guess it really depends on what kind of Doctor you have. If they are not assholes who view mental health as nothing but a made up thing, you should be fine.
Make sure you are comfortable with your Doctor first. If you prefer female Doctors, ask to see a female one. If you prefer male Doctors, ask to see a male one. I myself prefer male Doctors for some reason. It really depends on which gender you feel more comfortable around.
All you have to do is distract yourself whilst you are in the waiting room. I am the worst person when it comes to anxiety and Doctors’ appointments. I just sit in the waiting room having endless panic attacks and it is fucking horrible. To calm myself down I bring something along to distract myself. Try a novel you wish to read or a comic. If you like to draw or write then do that! Listen to music that will calm you down and just remember to breathe. It’s all going to be alright.
Now, when it comes to telling your Doctor it really depends on you. You could just straight up explain to them, or if you are too anxious to do that, then write everything down prior to your appointment and hand them the letter.
You should also know that your Doctor will want you to be assessed by a psychologist before he/she can prescribed you any medication. Well, that’s what I had to do. If you are lucky you will get the best psychologist in the world. I myself got stuck with two shitty ones that made me fear the mental health system, so I’m not so lucky in that area.
Isn’t it funny how Little Machines came out the day I needed it most? I have never had my anxiety this bad, and the only thing that can honestly calm me down in this moment of time is Lights’ music. And here I get an entire new album with words in it that I can relate to more than anything.
Lights, I don’t know how, but you did it again. You saved my life again. I ain’t going to lie, I was contemplating suicide again. I just wanted it to all end. And then I listened to Little Machines from start to finish.
And guess what? I’m still here. I’m still alive once again for the words Lights wrote.
I just wanted to say that I really hope you feel mental health wise, I struggle with mental illness myself, and I know it sucks sometimes, but you can get through it!! I believe in you ^o^ <3 also LITTLE MACHINES IS OUT I'M SO EXCITED :D
Dude! Thank you so much!
I’m doing a lot better today, I was triggered really badly and my anxiety hit it’s peak. Basically spent most of my time having panic attacks, crying, resisting urges, relapsing, crying some more. Then it calmed down and my depression was like, “Oh hey bro,” and I was just numb. Then my anxiety came back and it was all up and down. I also had to deal with the lovely old anorexia, which I have been truly recovered from since I was fourteen, so that was annoying. Oh and my OCD acted up too. Basically it was a mental illness shit storm. Now I’m just exhausting from it all and I want to sleep forever. It was a super duper exhausting time.
BUT HEY, THAT DON’T MATTER RN, BECAUSE LITTLE MACHINES IS OUT AND BRO.
I haven’t been online because I have been dealing with a lot mental illness wise. I’m not going to go into detail because it’s a long complicated thing, but let’s just say having severe anxiety ain’t no walk in a park.
I'm going to be seeing Lights in Toronto next month, and this is my first unseated concert, and I'm not quite sure what to expect. Have you seen her in concert before? If so, do you have any tips?
There will be a huge difference between my experience and yours, because I am from Australia and Lights is not well known down here, so it was easy to get to the barricade for me and to meet her. She was also just a side act for another headliner, who tbh idgaf about, so it wasn’t a huge thing for just her. Lights is an incredible performer, she puts so much energy and is ever so kind and awesome to the audience. I’m sure her actual headlining concerts are way better, because she will obviously be on longer. Since you are going to be at the Toronto show I can pretty much guarantee it will be a fuck ton harder to get to the barricade and to meet her.
My concert tips are pretty simple:
If you want to get to the barricade, get there as early as you can so you can be the first person into the venue and get to the front.
Hang onto the barricade, people will try to push. This applies more to “hardcore” moshes, but it’s always nice to secure a spot and feel like no one can take it from you.
Sing your little heart out, trust me, it makes everyone pain of normal days disappear.
Talk to people around you! I have never been to a concert where I didn’t make a friend. It’s always lovely to hear stories from other people and bonding over music is the best thing to do, trust me.
Just mosh your little booty! Jump, sing, scream, cry! Live in the moment and enjoy it. I once moshed for four entire hours in the hottest day of the year in a coat and stockings just for one band. It was worth it. I lived in the moment, made friends, sang so loud I lost my voice, cried, laughed, had band members wink at me, they even pointed at me, got to the barricade and moshed so fucking hard I was covered in bruises.
You can take a few photos, but trust me on this, it’s so much better to just be in the moment.
The experience really depends on the crowd. If you have a shitty twelve year old annoying crowd, it will suck. If you have the most genuine kind crowd, it will be amazing. Typically shitty crowds come with boy bands or musicians like Sleeping With Sirens. For me Lights’ crowd was just eh, no one really knew who she was and all they did was take photos. I was the only one jumping and actually getting into it. It made her smile at me and aw. I still had an amazing time though, because I got into it myself and ignored what was happening around me.
When it comes to meeting the musician - don’t get your hopes up. It’s important to bring along what you wish them to have just in case, but try not to have it set in mind that you will meet them. It just leaves you with disappointment. Lights, however, does tend to meet her fans quite often. For me she announced she was doing a signing on stage after her set. So I left straight away, didn’t even see the headliner, and I was second in line to meet her. She’s basically the most incredible human being I have ever meet. So kind, so beautiful, just awesome. I don’t know if you will get to meet her, she is just a knew mummy and does need her rest, so hopefully you do because that experience was amazing for me and still helps me out of my depressive episodes.
Just live in the moment and take it all in and never look down.